some soul searching...

Introverted. Reserved and private. Little interest in small talk. Not socially-oriented.

So, I just got the results of a personality test that I took for our praise team at church. The above words are a few of the words/phrases that were on MY RESULTS.

I'm thinking....WHAT????? Seriously. Honestly, I was a little upset. And, since God is working on freeing me from a tendency I have to obsess over things, I feel as if I need to think about this ONLY TONIGHT and then move on. Somehow.

Actually, I'll probably lose sleep over this, because that's how I tend to be.

You see, I really have NEVER thought of myself as reserved or not talkative. Now, please don't get me wrong; it's okay to be that way, but it is SO OPPOSITE of what I think I am. My husband is usually more of an introvert and I am the extrovert. I have had to take many personality tests over the years, and this one just came back different.

But, then again, upon further reflection, I AM DIFFERENT.

Ten years ago, I loved being the life of the party and talking to everyone there at least 25 times. Now, although I do enjoy a night out with friends occasionally and hanging out with my close friend over coffee, I love being home with my husband and sons. I love it.

Also, I look forward to and long for some alone, quiet, down, ME time. I love my Sunday drives to Mannford, just me and God. I LOVE long, quiet, relaxing baths. I love curling up with my favorite book. I love going on walks alone. I feel like I give, give, give all day every day, so if I get a chance to sit quietly for a while...AWESOME.

Now, these situations sure don't happen very often, so maybe this personality test picked up on the fact that I DESIRE more alone time...therefore, I am an introvert.

So, it's not that I'm unfriendly or unsocial, I'm just in a totally different place in my life now.

And, I'm okay with that.

I do, however, have the capability of being a crazy, outgoing, loud, fun person who LOVES dancing with the kids during kids' worship at church! It's in there. Maybe it's just a little deeper in there these days.

To close, here is the beginning sentence of my summary:
"Margo is an intense, results-oriented person, whose drive and sense of urgency are tempered and disciplined by her strong concern for the accuracy and quality of the details of any work for which she is responsible." hmmmmmm.....