Kyle's Birthday Eve

Here it is, the eve of my second-born's 9th birthday, and I feel compelled to write.  I can't believe he will be 9 tomorrow; my sweet, big-eyed, big-eyelashed, big-lipped baby is turning 9.  Where does the time go??

Motherhood is crazy.  I don't know how I would survive this journey without Jesus.  It is way, way harder than I ever would have imagined.

Last Sunday night, God showed me something big, really big.  I have been struggling majorly with being the mom to my sweet 9-tomorrow's little brother.  He is HARD.  He is DIFFICULT.  He is nothing like I imagined a child would be who is growing up in a striving-to-be-Christ-centered family.  But, God showed me that I should be grateful for him.  VERY GRATEFUL!  Because of precious 7-year-old, I am closer to my heavenly Father.  Because of him, I have prayed more than I ever would have prayed without him.  I have talked to God and poured my heart out to him so much on behalf of my precious Ian.  For that, I am grateful.  Very, very grateful.

I will persevere in doing good and press on!!!!  I love that my God is faithful!!