journal entry and some honesty

This is Kyle's journal entry for today.

Yes, this is a picture of me. This is my 5-year-old's interpretation of what I looked like coming down the hallway into MY bedroom where all 4 of my children were SCREAMING at each other. So, of course, in a very tantrum-like way, I threw open my bedroom door, sending the door stopper flying THROUGH the door and the door knob INTO the wall. Yes, I broke my bedroom door and my wall today in my 1 1/2 year old house. I really, really didn't think I opened the door that hard. I started crying, hard, and proceeded to YELL at the boys to go to their rooms. They looked completely scared and freaked out and RAN to their rooms, all except Caden who helped me pick up the pieces of door and wall off the floor.

Wow! Once again, my anger, my disgusting sin nature, took over and temporarily reigned. And once again, I feel so defeated. Just in the last couple of days, I have been reading about sanctification. I just read this Sunday night from the book Systematic Theology:
"A Christian should never say, 'This sin has defeated me. I give up. I have had a bad temper for thirty-seven years, and I will have one until the day I die, and people are just going to have to put up with me the way I am!' To say this is to say that sin has gained dominion. It is to allow sin to reign in our bodies. It is to admit defeat. It is to deny the truth of Scripture, which tells us, 'You also must consider yourselves dead to sin and alive to God in Christ Jesus (Rom. 6:11). It is to deny the truth of Scripture that tells us that 'sin will have no dominion over you' (Rom. 6:14)."

Well, I know that I am not defeated for real. I know that sin does not have dominion over me. But, I also know that I definitely just failed this test...I failed miserably in front of my 4 precious blessings. I know that I still have lots more sanctifying to do and lots more of God's grace and mercy to receive.